Onward and Downward

My new motto...Onward and Downward.  I got off track this weekend...I had been following my day plans but where I had been choosing lower cal options and sometimes just skipping what i couldn't have I found myself hungry and craving this week. Therefore most days i was pushing the cal limit and yesterday we had to go shopping and I ended up starting to eat out ok but ......I didn't stop as when I should...Yes it was healthy and I had them hold what I shouldn't eat so I didn't have to look at it on my plate but I have not been finishing most of my meals when we have been going out to make sure my cal would be good and I didn't do this last night and then I ate something I shouldn't have after and then i was still hungry when we came home and at 1am i ate some mixed nuts......I did weigh them and I did count cal but still....what am I doing....I hoped to be at 245 this weekend I wanted to be at 50 pounds gone ...I know i'm at 48...i was lucky to see a pound gone this week but it's not god enough...its so easy to say that I feel some better so I can ease up a little and we all know what happens then.....2 lost weekly becomes 1....becomes none...becomes +1 and then......we slide backward. I don't want that so I need a new motto.
In addition I haven't been able to exercise. I did get a wrist HR monitor.....i know the reviews favored the chest ones but after looking at them yesterday I realized i would not use it enough and i would use it as an excuse to not exercise...so i bought a wrist one and I didn't wait to order online as i want to program it today and get started a little.
Tomorrow is a new make that another day in this path to a smaller healthier me and i plan to approach it in a better frame of mind