shopping

I went shopping this week........in my closet and storage boxes. About 3 years ago I took a number of things out of my closet as i kept trying to put them on for work and they would be too small. I also moved some things to the end of the work rack. Now I have other things that are smaller in the back but these were the clothes that I had been wearing and now they didn't fit. It was after my kitty died and I fell off the weight loss wagon and just started to eat junk again and just kept going and gaining.  There were brief periods of loss but they were followed by gains until this past oct when I finally got my head straightened out about my food.  Unfortunately a lot of this weight gain is in my abdomen and less is coming off from there so that even though I now weigh less than I did 5 years ago some things don't fit yet....but lots and lots do. So i now have more pants and tops to wear to work this spring and summer than for the last 3 years. i have also bought a bunch of inexpensive tops at walmart that are a little too tight still so that I will have to work on getting into them in the next month or so. 
Size is a very interesting thing. The clothes that fit vary in size from XL to 3X and from 16 to 24. The shirts that are still too tight from walmart are an 2X and yet many XLs fit in more expensive tops from Saks and Niemans.  In other words I can wear a top in size 16 if I pay $150. but need a 3X if I pay $7.  Once when I generally wore 8's I tried on an outfit that I thought was too old looking from me at a store that I shopped in.....it was also more than I wanted to spend but it fit fine in a 4......at the time I remember thinking that some woman would probably pay extra just so they could say that they wore a 4.  I'll settle for the 7 dollar 3X right now as I plan to be giving it away in a few months, but it's really nice to have more clothes to wear without spending a lot.

funerals and weight

I was frustrated with my weight this past week, but opening the paper and seeing that someone i know had died at 57 kinda of put it in perspective.  It doesn't mean i should stop my diet...if anything it should make me keep to it better so my son doesn't lose his mother like his friend lost his dad.....but it does put the importance of what I will post later in it's place.  His friends dad was never heavy in the 25+ yrs i knew him...he used to be a lean busy man......and then he developed a chronic debilitating disease and then other systems began to break down and give him problems.  The last time I saw him he was on the thin side and with his muscle wasting he did not look good....if only we could convince the anorexics that thin doesn't always look good....forget you can never be too thin, you can.
I need to continue on the straight and narrow, eating right and tracking my food, cal, and fluids...I also need to get going and exercise to the limit that i can without injuring my hurt joints while I am still healthy enough to.....but whether I lose 3 to 4 pounds this week or 1/2 to 1 doesn't matter as long as I'm doing the right thing. The end will be reached with consistency and then I will know that I did my part to stay around.

Now the saga of my weight:
i started with the low carb days from P5 at 242
and the following week i was 239
i then rtnd to the higher carb days and on tues i was 240.5
i was on plan  and on water.  i then cut the carbs down some
and on thur i was 238
but in looking over my tracker i realized my water was low......
so i increased it and on sat was 239
and on sun 238.5.
I am now using a mix of the days and eating 3 fruits but keeping the carbs such as pot, rice, crackers, bread to complex choices and to 2 servings. I am back to a min of 18 glasses of fluids and picking days with more protein from among all the various menus we have.  Continuing to weigh and measure and will restart the exercise program and will see how this week does. I have 23 weeks and 80 pounds to reach my goal by my birthday.....so I need to average 2 pounds a week....and as I know that the loss is slower closer to goal, i need more than 1/2 or 1 pound now....